Thursday, December 25, 2008

Always the effin' bridesmaid...

I have a lump in my throat, and I wish I didn’t. The reason why I wish I didn’t is the cause of the lump… 27 Dresses. Laugh. It’s okay. Please, laugh. Ridiculous, I know. I didn’t even want to watch it, but it was between the cheese of a chick flick or the blood shedding of the Coen brothers’ No Country for Old Men – which, is great I do say, but I’ve already seen it, and since it is Christmas, I didn’t feel like vomiting before devouring some delish Mother-prepared turkey and trimmings.

The movie itself is predictable – if you’ve seen the previews, that’s the film – Katherine Hiegel’s character (Jane) has been in love with weddings (and the idea of love and marriage, of course, that go along with it) since she was eight – just after her mother died – she’s the trustworthy best friend who puts other people in front of herself, she’s in love with her boss, yada yada yada, her little sister comes into town, the boss falls for the sister, the sister lies to make sure the boss loves her even though he loves animals and she does not… you know how it goes – vegetarians (I kid!). Anyway, so yeah, the night the movie starts she leaves her planner in the cab she shares with James Marsden’s character (Kevin, “a writer” is all he gives of his profession), who creepily reads through her coming weeks to find when/how he can return the agenda, in doing this he sees that she’s in a million weddings, and does everything from picking the flowers to registering gifts and bringing the dress to the church. Now, Kevin just happens to be the Wedding Commitments writer for the New York Journal (the one that Jane loves and saves all the clippings of his pieces) and he’s cynical of the ceremonies (turns out his lady love left him at the alter) and tired of the job, oh so tired, wanting his break to bigger and better pieces. So, in addition to being smitten by Jane's good looks, he thinks, “feature piece” and the wheels, my friends, are set in motion. One fiasco after another takes place, as in all good movies – and yes, I will admit, while predictable it was enjoyable, I found myself yelling at Jane to grow balls; growling at the bitchy, soulless sister, Tess; and inevitably – with some amount of shame – with tears in my eyes, yearning for the love that every girl dreams of that only exists in these stupid fucking (pardon me) chick flicks – but eventually, everything works out, and the 28th dress Jane puts on is her very own wedding gown. And would you believe it!? When they get married their sarcastic best friends fall for each other at their ceremony - complete with witty remarks. Crazy. Oh, and both of Jane and Kevin's favorite part of wedding ceremonies is when the bride walks in there’s that look of love on the groom’s face.

I didn’t write this to write a review, but it just made me think a lot about relationships, and how nothing ever really works out to plan, unless, after multiple trials and errors you have a writer and director who are just tired at the end and say, oh, well, I suppose these two people are attractive enough that we’ll just throw some things that they have in common here in the end, a Benny and the Jets sing-a-long at a bar in the middle of nowhere New York, and everything will turn out roses in the bride’s bouquet.

EDIT! I got ranty – real ranty, and real crazy after the review. Real. Real. Whoa; apologies to friends and strangers who encountered my slip out of sanity - in my defense I was home for the holidays and rambling and feeling sorry for myself and the lack of good-for-me romantic relationships, like an asshole. (Haruki Murakami writes in Norwegian Wood, "Don't feel sorry for yourself, only assholes do that.") There was one line I did really like in the movie, and it was when Jane said that she was just waiting for someone she loved to be waiting for her at the end of the aisle, and Kevin told her she deserved to be with someone who respected her. Now, again - movies... this doesn't happen in "real life" or the life I've experienced. And I'm not looking to get married right now, doiy!, but I do agree that maybe some things are worth the wait, it's just that I'm kind of impatient and I would like for someone to stick out a hand to hold every now and then, and have me be there special somebody rather than just a number in their late night phone directory. But, life isn’t as they portray it in the movies – though, it did take me a sad number of years to figure that out - and crazy coincidences aren't a part of my everyday existence... usually.

So, yes. I do wish I would’ve watched No Country instead, at least then I could’ve gazed at Josh Brolin, Javier Bardem and Woody Harrelson running around for two hours, getting sweaty and trying to stay alive. Now that’s sexy. Call me crazy, but I’m just a lonely little lady, sitting with my chin in my hand dreaming of a man who inspires mutual feelings and a little romance… and DANCING!!! You gotta dance!

I’ve been thinking about getting some cats. Yeah, plural. ‘Scrazy, right? My Auntie Sandy says they stay out of trouble if they have friends, which one would think is the complete opposite of the truth.


MERRY CHRISTMAS! I hope you got everything you wanted!!

PS - this cover is relatable - hardly happens here, right?! 'Scrazy, again.

PPS - I think it'd be fun to be a bridesmaid (Jane had some pretty sweet dresses, and I like costume parties); weddings are silly - 'slong as there's an open bar (wink)

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Animal Collective Stirs My Soul....

Case in point(s):



Summertime Clothes (intro reminds me of Pink Floyd's crazy animal noises song)

And I really, really like this My Girls song, but that Fireworks is super awesome too, yeah? EYAH!!


Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Give a li'l Smile, Sunshine!

It took me a minute to find this*, but my diligence was wonderfully rewarded. I heard the piece on Jay Allison's This I Believe -- oh no! this website looks to be very inspiring, but oh so distracting from work. And what a cool project, I urge you to read up on the story of Edward R. Murrow starting this in the 1950s - a time of fear and fallout shelters - gathering people from all walks of life around the radio, to hear stories that inspired and gave them hope in a time of dark uncertainty. This project is a wonderful welcome back, especially today, with - everything; it reminds us that we're all in this together, and we're all just trying the best we can, not having a clue of what to do. I think we forget that all too often. Life's hard, but the people you share it with, and the things you do to fill it, make it wonderful, and while it's easy to get caught up in the craziness you feel consuming your life, it's really refreshing to stand back, take a breath, and see how everyone else is doing it - and think, hey, we are all pretty much the same. Flowers in the barrels, man. We all feel the same, in terms of making it through another day. One more thing, Dan Gediman and Allison said something I really like when they were talking about they don't plan to change peoples' beliefs, but they just hope to encourage people to begin the much more difficult task of developing respect for beliefs different from their own. And I think that's wonderful.

Okay, now to what I wanted to talk about in the first place. *Howard White speaks so eloquently of his experiences in communicating/acknowledging everyone he crosses paths with, and his story is very touching - and yes, inspiring, it's true. And he looks like such a nice guy, too! Look at that smile! That's a good smile. Speaking of smiles, people really need to smile more. Now, I'm not saying people should go around smiling all the time, but y'know, if you want to, go ahead. I give you permission; we live in a free smile country. But, then again, maybe you really shouldn't smile all the time. My elementary school nurse, AHH! What was her name? Mrs. Mann - no, that's not possible, because that would be too hilarious. Oh! And I can see her face, cause she was always smiling. Always. When she told you you had a temperature and that you could go home, when she was checking lice, when she examined you for a curved spine, shirtless - kids, not her. Smile, smile, smile - it was almost painful to experience. Like she honestly couldn't help but smile all the time. Though, I do suppose it's better than frowning all the time, right? Right. People who don't return smiles is what really gets me. Like, I get it if I smile at you because you're really, super-duperly sad, and I don't want you to be, and all you can muster up is a lip-chin quiver and more tears - I get that. Or, if you're the Governor of New York - ZING! Fred Armisen, AWESOME! That was really, really great, dead-on. And, apparently Fred's imitation was not warmly received by Mr. Governor... that what Anderson Cooper was going to tell me Monday night, but then he kept saying, "After this break" or, "After we talk with these people who have no idea what they're talking about because they aren't listening to my questions." And then after 15 minutes of promises and lies I got up to do some dishes during commercials. Oh, it's time for Nancy Grace, or whatever comes on after Anderson, awesome. That's really neat. So, I'm guessing you just told us that David Paterson was offended, who isn't that's imitated by an SNL castmate. Go cry about it. If Kristin Wigg played me, occasionally her eyes would cross, she would laugh bark, push people too hard, be drunk off whiskey, possibly stoned, and most likely talking about someone who is standing right behind her. What?! No. Anyway, smiles. There's this woman in my office who is constantly scowling. No joke. It's terrifying. She stalks around the office, shooting darts at anyone who makes eye contact with her, and God forbid you try to smile, because if you do, she'll cut it down mid lip-curl. Even though she never returns it, I can't help but smile at her every day, in hopes that one day her heart with melt and let the office in. I've talked to other people in the office about it, and they agree that she is frightening because of her demeanor. My one friend says she must hate the floor, stomping around like that. And another swears she saw her in the office supply room eating a baby. Well... y'know.

And smiling and hello-ing strangers is so hard to do in the city sometimes, I'd say. It is easier with old people though. Old people love smiling at strangers when they walk down the street. I don't know if it's that we're afraid of each other, or too busy, or too focused on not slipping on the ice... and I understand the 1,000 commute stare, but all the other times, ignoring each other - is it so hard to smile? What about just a head nod? Head nods are so easy, and fun! So, readers, the next time you cross paths with someone and make eye contact, how about a li'l smile? It might be the thing that person needs for a better day; be a pal, stranger.

Stretching is Good

It just is, right? It feels so good. Ahhhhhhhhh! Stretch. My back's a little tight right now, and it's totally my own fault. I was running late for yoga yesterday morning, looking for gloves that were on my hands with the lights off, or something, and I walked in [only] 5 minutes late. They were already getting serious, and rather than warming up and then jumping in later, I jumped in right away and felt my back tighten up when I went into my first chaturanga dandasana (You like how I dropped that pose like I know what I'm talking about? I'm learning, slowly, but surely!), it's part of the sun salutation - good times. I wonder if my muscles needed to be extra warmed up because, while I did walk to the gym, my muscles probably froze a little somewhere along the way. It being -11 degrees outside and all. WONDERFUL WINTER! How you bite me so! So yeah, and then we did the inverted wall thing, or maybe it's an inverted dandasana - you sit with your back against the wall, legs out in front of you and then you mark where your heels were and plant your hands as you go into a tight downdog-ish, and then you just climb up the wall backwards, three or four steps, until your 90 degrees, and you just hang out for a while; it's pretty crazy. Then later the instructor had us doing these crazy hops up to a handstand, and I felt like a mentally challenged rabbit; I laughed a lot and then I stopped. I kind of worry about the instructors at my gym ever since I took a class with one instructor who wasn't correcting people on their form; I noticed people in the class were being sloppy in their movements and she didn't say anything to them, and that's just not good for you and it's distracting for me, and disconcerting, for sure. So now, I'm like, am I doing everything right? I'll ask tomorrow if I can get there early enough. If. Oh.

But this yoga thing is good. I've done pilates in the past, but this is strong stretching to the MAX! And I like the whole meditative practice that goes with it, and focusing on inner peace and connecting to yourself. It's pretty cool. And it feels so good!! WoW! What a way to start the day, I say. Nice. And I have a crazy ridiculous Christmas sweater to wear to the company party tomorrow - FUN TIMES!!! And then I go home to Missouri for Christmastime family fun!!! I hope this evil winter weather doesn't ruin (say it as if you were British) my plans. Ooh! So much to do before then.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Why won't you work, iTunes!!?!

WHY!?!? Alls I want to do is listen to some "Nighttiming" -- well, there we go; napster fixed that. Okay, so it's Coconut Records, and that's Jason Schwartzman, so if you don't like him, or find him annoying, this goodness isn't for you. Not judging you (outloud) just saying. Mojitos, man.

There are many things I should be doing, that I am not. Fancy that! I sorta just cleaned up my room there for a second, and then I ate a cookie. I thought about reading a play about a woman giving birth to stillborn hairless rabbit parts - yeah, I shit you not - set in the Middle Ages with historical facts sprinkled in here and there. I put it down when I tried it last week. No, that sounds pretty silly. Cancel this, I'm going to go do that.

Yeah, bitches! What!?

"Pack up the bags to beat back the clock --" and "We both go together if one falls down" -- "I wish you would put yourself in my suitcase" -- just the yearning in that voice, in that song; the sadness, the worrying... Fuck! Marry me, Mr. Schwartzman, and we can go nighttiming together. And the rockin' Weezer-y guitar. MMMM! RAWR!

So, I tell you: play readin' now, guitar playin' in a bit, and having a good time, all the time.

Latese!

Friday, December 12, 2008

The Internet is MAGIC!

It is. You know this. I know this. We know this together.

So, I apparently finished my work for the day at 10:33 this AM, and since that time, I have changed my gchat status a mere 17 times. I was about to change it for the 18th, and then I chuckled and said to myself, Hey, lady! You have a blog. Stop subjecting gchat friends to your insanity and see if maybe blog buddies would like to laugh, too. Then my surrounding cubemates raised their eyebrows and worriedly whispered to one another. Also, a lot of gchat friends aren't online today because they're either A) Bums and don't work on Friday, or B) being alcoholics at their company's Holiday Parties -- yes, I'm jealous on both accounts; what of it!?! So, I was basically updating my status to make myself laugh, which is primarily why I write this blog. To write, look back, and say, Gee, I sure am witty, and oh! so clever. You can be jealous, it's ok.

Have you ever tried to wink instead of blink? It's fun for a while because it's like - Camera 1. Camera 2. Camera 1. Camera 2., but then you might start to get a little dizzy/nauseous, so don't do it for a long time.

Internet magic started this morning when I was thinking about my first gchat status and what I would put to make my glist friends smile. For some reason The My Little Ponies Movie popped into my head, and it was the easiest thing to find, too, which I found odd since every time I have mentioned this movie to a friend, talking about the Smooze and the little furry guys (bushwoolies) and the scary as shit spider-thing, Ahgg, I only received blank stares and head shakes... apparently everyone wasn't as awesome as I was/am - that's all I'm saying, because it was a really good movie, and if you couldn't tell from the wikipedia page, then how about this more detailed/rainbowed plot AND song lyrics!?!?! JUST LOOK AT THE CAST IF YOU DON'T BELIEVE ME!!! The 80s loved fantasy movies, hello, WILLOW!!!

Then, my dearest friend, Lisaface, sent me this little gem of splendidity!!! Hilarious feigned anger at the cutest wittle animals, ever (say it like you're talking to a little baby gorilla just before her silverbacked father unexpectedly charges out of the brush)!!
--The squirrel post lead me to this page, which, sadly for the people who frequent this site, does not appear to be a joke. People love squirrels? That's crazy!!!! This one time in high school, I was walking down the street with a friend and this squirrel stalked and chirped at us for over four blocks from the branches above before blocking our path and freaking us out, rightfully so, rabies-infested critter. But, I just thought, what if it was a boy squirrel, and in love with us like the little girl squirrel from Sword in the Stone? Oh, her heart was broken when Arthur turned back into a boy.And, then my office bestie, Mikey Boy, sent me this great, doctored gmail image from the North Pole to celebrate the Holiday season.

Searching on that HOLYTACO site, I saw this post and immediately vomitted in my mouth, but then I thought, I wish he would've covered it in chocolate first, or deep-fried it (again?) or both; I went into a food coma just imagining it.

Then I was just thinking about how much I was enjoying the music I was listening to.

I was happily surfing the 'net when my bossman decided there was work to be done after all. Really, man!? I was bored for an hour, and there was nothing, but as soon as I try to do something productive-ish with my time, here you come with accounts that need to be built, and customers that need to have their business contracts upheld, or something.

But then Lisa sent me this, and I think it could entertaining, and useful if you were doing a research project, and I was looking at it, and then my bossman came over this time and said, "Hey, can you make this Animal Hospital sound accredited?" And I had no choice but to close out my funtime windows, smile, and say, Sure thing, boss!

Fiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiine-ah. So, I hope you enjoyed looking at those sites you sent me, for a second time, Mike and Lisa; and Ash and Svobods I hope some of them made you laugh/barf, respectively.

And remember, the Easter Bunny doesn't fucking roll on Shabbas.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

It's the Thee-a-tah, People

Last night I helped out my old intern boss/mentor/hero by volunteering at her fabulous soiree, in her friends' amazing Old Town home -- seriously, amazing; original art covered the walls (the painter among the couple in residence), high ceilings and East-facing windows, hardwood floors (in the kitchen the HW floor extended up the side of the wall to form the coolest bench I've ever seen, ever!), marble counter tops, space, space, space, a sliding library-like ladder helped them get to up-high things in the kitchen, and there was even a bidet in the bathroom (a fuckin' bidet!!!)! Soooooooo fancy!! And, they had the best, most un-pathetic, HUGE Charlie Brown Christmas tree, EVER!!! (It kinda looked like this, but probably around 13-14' and slightly fuller, and way more decorated.)The soiree was a little thank-you get-together type of deal for the amazing donors, board members, playwrights, and actors that contribute to the best thing Chicago theatre has to offer this city, country, and - dare I say it? - world! I love volunteer work, especially if it's a favor to a friend, and even more if I get to dress fancy.

This party was fancy! The wine and beer flowed, the hors d'oeuvres were splendidly delicious, and the crowd was fabulous all around.

I do have to say I was slightly nervous in the beginning; I don't really like grown-ups, or meeting new people - they both make me kind of anxious - and there was a lot of both going on. Luckily, I was kept busy with welcoming people and getting them name tagged, signed in and what-not, and by the time I was walking around being a paparazzi (these services were requested of me) peoples' cheeks were flushing from the alcohol. And, let me just say for the record, the attendees were some of the most outrageously incredible and good-hearted people I've encountered in a while - not a bad seed in the whole lot! But, then again, it's a theatre function, so I should've known to expect that. Plus, I knew all the people I worked with and I was introduced to a lot of new people as the night wore on - I think it's the crowds and the noise that overwhelm me, or perhaps, more pointedly put, my lack of self-confidence (which is the most annoying thing in the world - get over it already, right?!?! Sheesh!) and self-promotion, but with practice and kind smiles from strangers turning into friends *and-ah some wine-ah* I had a great time!

#1 -- I've been struggling with my writing, or more specifically, playwriting habits for a while now... my dedication is severely lacking. One thing I always use, and this is probably going to make me sound crazy - but what doesn't 'cause I kinda am!ish - is the Edward Albee excuse, as I've grown to call it. My playwriting professor/hero/Jewish Mother (though he's a man - he referred to himself as the JM) in college is good friends with Mr. Albee, and he would mention the man at least once a class, and hell! I would, too! Shucks, stories of stories about Albee telling David about how Tennessee Williams would come over and hang out at his pool in the summertime, and lounge, and drink, and laugh - stories, complete with accents (all!), about how Edward took David and his two young sons to watch a snake being fed mice in the Geology building on campus, and commented on how the snake devoured the poor, helpless, stupid little creatures. And, of course, the Edward Albee method of keeping his characters in his head, completely to himself, until he knows them well enough to write them down and make them permanent - sometimes he does this for months, or years; walking around with them, having conversations, fine-tuning the details. Call it what you will: multiple personalities disorder, schizophrenia, Sally Fields... I think it's good. And, I think it's smart, because I've read this, and experienced it myself, once you tell someone something, there isn't as strong of an urge to write it down anymore - it's already off your chest. Usually, this is a bad thing for me; I'm a writer, which for me translates to: I'm awkward; I fumble over my words, get caught up in the story so much that I skip the details and go straight to the end, or get caught up in the details and there is no end. Sometimes my writing probably displays this, and I know I've got some work to do.

But, last night, a match was lit under my ass (and a giant flame burst forth because I farted - ha! No, no, no. I didn't really! But, have you ever done that? Hilarious. This one time... at South Padre... another time, another place); inspiration hit me full force, a powerful yearning to sit silently and write for a long time, whether pen scratching across a page, or fingers flying across a keyboard. It started when Russ Tutterow, the Artistic Director, gave a little introduction to the scene of the upcoming production, How I Became An Interesting Person. He spoke so eloquently of the good work that playwrights do; the toiling, the sacrifice, the poured out soul, and how, without the playwright, the actors and audience could not be challenged, excited, or inspired. So many times I feel like the writer is overlooked by the audience craning to catch a glimpse of the actor, but maybe that's the best thing, that you've composed something so beautiful, moving, and real that you convinced your viewers that your words are truly the actor's words, instead of vice verse.

As I was waiting for new arrivals to unbundle, I picked up a pamphlet from the table, and inside there was this lovely quote from the magnificent Mr. Oscar Wilde:
I regard the theatre as the greatest of all art forms, the most immediate way in which a human being can share with another the sense of what it is to be a human being.
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And it made me think about how I felt when it first clicked that I wanted to write for theatre. I want to tell stories, and thank goodness I wasn't around in the prehistoric days when they told stories instead of writing them down - oh, how terrible it would've been for me, as I've already told you, I'm not that great of an oral storyteller... unless I write it down first, wink.
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#2 -- The people I met; networking, I guess you could call it, as I told people how while I have a job, it doesn't stir my soul like I wish it would. I met lawyers, bankers, concierges, musicians, and artists, among others. And they all told me, in more or less words, to follow my dreams, and not let anyone tell me otherwise. One fabulous man I was talking to, the Concierge, told me that we're all OJT, or "on the job training" and it reminded me of something Kurt Vonnegut said about how we all only just got here, and we all don't know what we're doing, but we're going to try to figure it out nonetheless; he was really inspiring, and hilarious, and I left the party holding onto my dreams tighter than before, because they're mine, and no one can take them away from me. That last part sounds pretty cheesy, but it's true; sometimes dreams are the only things we have, and believe me, as an imaginary playwright, I dream a lot.
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I want to pick apples; write for papers; organize events; live on a commune; bake breads, pastries, and desserts; give hiking tours in the Southwest mountains; teach children English overseas, or anything in general over here; deliver mail; operate a hot air balloon; travel the world; run across a state, or the entire country; drive a truck; sail the seas - and write about it all. But, wait, okay, maybe not those last two, as I clung white-knuckled to the wheel of the U-Haul from Columbia, Missouri to St. Joseph, through Iowa and into Chicago... and I used to get terribly seasick whenever I went deep sea fishing off the coast of NJ. I'm young, and there's nothing keeping me from doing all of these things but myself... so I need to doppelgänger myself and say, GET MOVING, OR GET OUTTA THE WAY!!

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

My Friend, My Sister, My Partner in Crime

Gayle Jane Winfrey** is something else. Technically for a while there, she really was my sister, albeit a sorority one. I don't know if I can still call her my sorority sister because after I dropped out because my Dad stopped paying, they stripped me of all my affiliations like I never even existed. Harumph! Thanks, ladies - I would say "sisters" but you'd probably charge me. But, I digress.

I first met this lady, like I said, in the sorority house on the University of Missouri- Columbia's campus. She was drunk and funny. I was new and weary of everyone from the start, but the mischievous sparkle in her eyes and slurring of her words told me that this was the start of a dear and beautiful friendship, though, years later, Gayle Jane would come to deny that this event ever took place, after explaining that she was blacked out a good majority of her junior year. Me too. College was a dream. A drunken, ambiguous, glorious dream.

Since that first meeting, Gayle has held a special place in my heart. We had an American Lit class together (my junior year, her senior) and our Emily Dickinson loving professor did not like Gayle because she always came in late, drunk/hungover, and one day spilt a gallon of coffee all over the floor... after coming in late, but for me, she kept things entertaining in a room full of scared stupid or pretentious practicing kids.

Gayle graduated, she slept in my roommate's bed for a week and then she moved to Chicago. An inspiration if there ever was one, and I promised her that I would join her in the wind upon my graduation. She struggled, Starbucksed, interned, socialized/networked, and drank her time away while I cried in final math exams. Then, finally, in March, we were reunited and it felt so good. Until she stepped in dog poo while she was helping me move into my apartment, and mashed it all in the stairs. I think I just made that up. I probably shouldn't have said anything, because now you think I'm a liar. But, I'm not... all the time.

We like to make up songs and sing them to each other. I made up a song about her when we were at the Lincoln Park Conservatory, when I came for a visit in October '07:

Gayle Winfrey, you're an Earth Star -
Twirling your ribbon in the moon-light -
Cause Gayle Winfrey you're an Earth Star.

She then made a song about me:

Penny Sumner, you're a Strawberry Tree,
Grew up in the woods of gentry.
Play your guitar like a demon,
When people say you're bad you don't believe 'em,
Because Penny Sumner, you're a Strawberry Tree.

I've never really liked this song, ever, because it claims that I am bad at my guitar. I am NOT. I just haven't been playing that long, that's all. And Strawberry Trees don't even exist; it's all a complete lie. So, needless to say, I've always been a little sore. So a couple weeks ago, when she told me that she wasn't happy that her song only had 3 lines while mine had 5, [Note: Strawberry Trees are real, I'm a liar] I made up this song:

Gayle Winfrey, you're an Earth Star,
Twirling your ribbon in the moonlight.
People yell at you, and say,
Stop dancing like an idiot in the street, I'm trying to drive,
And they splash muddy water on you as they pass by,
Cause, Gayle Winfrey, you're an Earth Star.

She then got mad at me because she thought I was being moody, and then I said, SHUT UP, sister.

But, back to before then.... we like going on adventures together, whether or not they involve booze or Ann Sather's cinnamon rolls. We were orphans together for Thanksgiving '08. She was the only person I told I sucked on lava rocks as a child... until you, just now, but when she retells the story she says I ate the rocks... hardening my digestive system and my heart. We're both really loud, and tell stories (though hers are more elaborate - I won't say better, per se - than mine), and have brown hair. So, duh. We're sisters. When she was a kid, she had a pot bellied pig named Hillary Pigton, and she and her siblings would push it down the tile stairs in the morning when their secret agent FBI Dad told them to let H.P. out, and they all thought it was really funny because her little hooves clicked and clacked all the way down (because it was during the Clinton era, and her family is Republican) -- why anyone would want to own one of these, and keep it in their home, is beyond me. She let me stay on her couch when I didn't have heat last March, and because her furnace roared continuously, she promised that I would get so hot it would make me mad... and it did. Sometimes I punch her or push her into walls, then deflect anything she tries back at me, while she curses that she'll get me when I least suspect it under her breath, in a British accent. We help each other keep it real, and cool, or she'll convince me that it's a good idea for me to take my antibiotics after drinking whiskey for 6+ hours and I'll wake up shirtless, confused, on a towel covering up my vomit. Good times. More songs, stories, and laughs to be made - and I sure hope we'll drunkenly slur our Earth Star/Strawberry Tree songs at each other's weddings through hiccups and tears.

I love her, though, I do. She makes life in the big, exciting, but sometimes lonely city a lot more fun!!

--OOOH!! And we also bough rollerblades together, last summer, but it didn't really work out after she fell down a couple times she decided it wasn't for her, at least, not that day... I like rollerblading, but not stopping, not so much.

**Not her real name.... she just said she wanted to be called Jacqueline Irene, but I think that name is ugly. Gayle Jane?, you wonder aloud with a look of disgust on your face? Eff you.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

If I were in a band....

This past weekend I was lucky enough to get my hands on some serious Rock Band action at a friend's house. Now, this was my first encounter with the experience (yeah, that's right, it's not a game, man) and let me tell you, ROCKIN'!!... but not really, sorta furiously clicking and concentrating really hard. So, yeah, I was slightly intoxicated. One mustn't pass up free Absolut. Am I right? Yes, I am. And tallboys of PBRs (pronounced perbs). I played the drums, and the guitar, and I sang - BOY! Did I sing! Wow. Now, I'm no Yoko Ono, but I can waaaaaaaaaaaail if I want to! Actually, I think I loved singing the most because it was the only thing I didn't have to get saved on. Drumming was a lot of fun once I got the hang of it; the guitar grew on me? Anyway, it was SPECTACULAR! - and I can't wait for some more rockin' with my friends (I sang that so you know). ASIA'S ONLY TIME WILL TELL just came on!!! I wonder if they have that? Okay, you know what's crazy? That I just found a list for all the songs on Rock Band on wikipedia - the things. Is the internet bigger than the world? NO! They sure don't have it! An atrocity! And, what I was getting to is band names. Yeah, Ricky don't lose that number. Hey! That could be one: Ricky & the Numbers? No, okay just that line? Is it copyrighted? Yes. So, I was thinking about if I were to ever be in a rock band, what would the name be? Y'know? And I concluded that I would make sure we had a fuckin' outrageous name to match our fuckin' outrageously awesome sound.... AKA:

**Not in any particular order as all are AWESOME!!

1. Like Water (briefly explored in college with my partner in musical crime, Smash McDash AKA DJ Miss Slee)

2. Gang of Cats

3. Earthquake Insurance

4. Scott Bakula is my Father

5. Six Shootin' Sisters

6. Plaid & Corduroy

7. Umlat: Dot Dot

8. Ferociousity

9. Anne & the Toinettes

10. Dingbat Tally & Cribby Squires (a one-time only duo event - maybe to be resurrected later?)

11. Lazarus Rising

12. Jellybean & the Jaybirds (back-up singers nekkie, of course)

13. Rawr!

14. Jaguar Kitties

15. Chief Thick Beard

16. MCRs (I didn't want to tell you what it meant. Keep you guessing, y'know? But I might forget if I don't: Magic Carpet Riders; shh)

17. The Unemployment Line

18. Lichtende Zeeën/Fluorescent Sea

19. From Fish to Birds

20. Archimedes & The Wizard

21. Cape Cad in the Summah

22. The Doo Wats (alternative spelling Doo Wats -- inspired by Tony Pastor and the Clooney Sister's "Gonna Get a Girl")

23. In Honor of Ellington

24. Paisley & The Squares

25. You Best Buy

26. Canuck, Y'Wanna

27. Cliche Clique Chic (okay, just try to say it a couple times really fast, you get the hang of it, no? No? Oh.)

28. The Killer Dillers

29. Whachutahk'bouts

30. Running With Kites

31. Panda Bears & Bully Buttons (first album/we would ad as: Who doesn't love us?)

32. C'mon

33. Mr. Bojangles' Band

34. Tonight, Tonight, Tonight (Ohhh ohh - what is that song; who sings it? I can only remember that part and a few mumbles before and after.) GENESIS! I don't need your help. Band name still? Maybe just The Ohhh Ohhs, it would encourage our fans to sing along.

35. I Found a Monkey

36. Two Brains, One Mic (or that could just be a smashing article title for an explosive criticism of a bad band; or ironic)

37. The Wits

38. Oui: a French Yes cover band (I plan to go abroad one day)

39. Pine Tree Island

40. Scotch, Straight Up

41. Scotch, On the Rocks

42. Jimmy, Give Me a Cola

***George Clooney Drinks Whiskey
***George Clooney Drinks Scotch
***George Clooney Drinks Bourbon
***George Clooney Drinks A Lot

43. Chevy Chase is Paul Simon

44. Dogs in the Moonlight

45. We Are Flight Attendants

46. Incidents & Accidents

47. Sheep & Ewes

48. Warm Wool

49. Ewes Are Sheep

50. Sheep Are Ewes

51. The Venn Diagrams

52. The Pony Express

53. Noise Boulevard

54. Deutschland ist mein Heim

55. The Screaming Lobsters

56. God, I Hate Boars

57. Cabra Picante

58. The Ghost Owls

59. Porter, Cavendish & Wadsworth

60. The Railroad Tycoons

61. Hammer Fight

62. The Lonely Remainder

63. Fuckin' Long Division

Okay, and I think that's it. If you couldn't tell, I was kinda grabbing for things there at the end. Ohhh. This was fun. K.

64. Georgie & The Highlighters

65. Camping Vacation

66. Oxymoron

I'm doing it again. Done. For real.

67. Charlie & The Prisms

The next day...

68. The Radness

69. Rodney Raddington & The Raiders

70. Golden Toothpicks

71. Whiskey Love

72. The Dull Surprises

73. Sally & The Swashbucklers

74. Jeremiah Messiah

Later that day...

75. Captain William & The Kidds (though this might require a frontman named, William, which I would assume is completely doable with a visit to the County Clerk - is that where you go for name changes?)

76. The Land Pirates

77. It's Freedom Time!

A few days later...

78. Fax Machine Confusion

79. Falafel Joy

80. Bamboo Shooters

81. Mind Loss

*** 12.14 additions
The [Red] Rovers
Wandering Rovers (first title: Rovers Rove Redundantly)

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

I Believe in Wishing Wells

My friend sent me this great article on writing by Elizabeth Gilbert (of Eat, Pray, Love fame); very inspiring, truthful stuff - the article, not the book; I haven't read the book. Basically, you just gotta write and forgive yourself when you don't write. It's not that hard; you're only putting pen to paper. But you should do it more often than not, better for the practice.
The precious treasures that are hidden inside you will say "YES!" when you have the courage to share your work.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Ex-clu-clu-clu-clu-sive!

Neil Young's Canadian crazy and damn good with a guitar. Courtesy of NPR, take a listen to his soon to be released (December 2) Live at Canterbury House 1968 -- beautiful, beautiful stuff. Wow; thank you, Neil! Far out, man.

Oh, and last week 'twas The Fireman (Sir Paul McCartney and Youth) Electric Arguments exclusive, which is now out on CD store shelves! I like it, it's happy and he starts out a-rockin'!! Certain songs conjure up images of marching throu [JESUS - some people shouldn't wear heels!!! One of my neighbors just clomped down the stairs, and I coulda sworn I thought I was gonna hear a NEEEIIIIIGGHHH! before the door closed.] -through misty sunlit fields or forests, snapping too.

Do you want to make a play date?

On the way to the laundromat this morning I passed a mother pushing her child in a stroller. The two were chatting up a storm and having a grand ole time. As I came closer, the child said something the mother couldn't hear, so mother leaned in and said, "What? GRAHAM? Did you say Graham? Well, we'll have to make a play date, then. ELLA? You want to see Ella, too? We can do that." And they strolled on.

Play dates. Babies hanging out with babies. This kid has a more active social life than I do. I wish I had a secretary to make my play dates for me. Instead I gotta do the planning and scheduling, and I'd of course be hanging out with my twentysomething friends, and not babies. Nothing against babies, but I don't want any of 'em near me, unless I know it, then it may be okay. Twentysomething. So, yeah, the mom is basically a secretary, a liaison between the babies. She's completely at her baby's bidding. Ew, I don't like that. Bossy babies - no thanks. But it must be nice - I suppose the same goes for famous people, eh? They're bossy. And, you probably want to throw lawyers, doctors, principals and Santa in there, too, yeah? No. I'm only comparing babies and famous people - those people are hard workers, these people are just being bossy and lazy. Yeah, babies are lazy.

To prove my point about the laziness. On my way home from the laundromat, I passed the same baby/mommy duo; and guess what? This baby was sleeping. Talking and bossing one moment, sleeping the next. The world is unjust, little baby, just you wait.

Friday, November 21, 2008

Spiders for SALE!!!

First, let it be known that I hate spiders. No offense to them, they can't help how creepy they are, and they probably hate me, too, seeing as how I may have/definitely killed one or 70 of their relatives (of any given species). I digress (and God! I love saying that! but in a British accent so as not to seem too pretentious).

Why I write today is because in searching on GOOD's site, I stumbled upon this little gem. I laughed, but was very skeptical... until I found this. $10,000!?!?! That's insane!!! Really!?!

Granted this is no spider, but maybe it could get me out of my next round of bills, especially if I can find a way to generate enough internet buzz to lure some schmuck into paying thousands of dollars for said piece of PAINT art (click to enlarge the picture... explanation: at first it was a landscape with a field of flowers, but I thought it was missing something, so I decided a bunny, but bunnies aren't that interesting so Bunnicula, but then that wasn't enough and I thought about the tortoise and the hare, and the only kind of tortoise I can draw is a dead one... so. There you go!). I think I'll need a little more practice as "paint"ing with a mouse is not as easy as I remember, or maybe I just expect my talent to increase along with my years. This matter requires further investigation/practice, and I promise to keep you posted.

Also, completely unrelated, but what isn't on this blog. I LOVE BEEEEEEER! because it gives me the confidence I need to kill spiders/silverfish (oh, those things are even worse, because they have so many legs and they can go so fast and you don't even know they're there, like, maybe you'd be sleeping and you wake up thinking you have a feather on your face, oh this is so soft, how delightful, but then... no I can't imagine this scenario any more otherwise I might not sleep for a week, and too much caffeine wreaks havoc on my digestive system). I recently had Dogfish for the first time a week or so ago, and my! it was delicious. I will continue to drink wherever I find it, whether it be from the pub, my local grocer's, or the cold, dead grip of Bruce the Bum... it will feel so warm in my tum. Mmm! Pleasantries. It may also help with the PAINT art. We shall see. We shall see. Aren't things better when they're repeated? Aren't they?

Monday, November 17, 2008

hop on a freighter - take me home

I quite like this song, and maybe you will, too? Hmm. A little bit guitar strummin' and a little banjo pickin', definitely fits the mood I'm feelin' today. Oooh, and how 'bout these songs, too!?PS - the band looks way cool, and NO WONDER I LIKE THEM!!!, Devendra Banhart is a part of it... sometimes? I'm doing me some investigating at my local record shop, and I'd advise you to do the same, eh?

If you're interested in purchasing, Amazon always helps if you live in the boonies (would that be capitalized, like a proper place, or no...? No.).... BUMMER! I just got so excited to see that they're coming to Chicago, but nooooooooooooo they're touring with the Black Crowes and therefore are charging an OUTRAGEOUS $40, which I am still very likely to pay because I want to see them live... Vetiver, not the Black Crowes, just to clarify.
PPS- learn more about the sweet, sweet smelling vetiver grass. Bless you, Wikipedia.

Back to work so I can afford this ticket. Merh, merh, merh.

---11/24/08--- I bought the album the night I wrote the above. Beautiful stuff. Folksy covers of which I wish to hear the originals. Great songs. The CD insert begins with, "Play us an old song, one of your favorites. Currents songs are nice too, but we always seem to prefer the songs that surprise us and come out of nowhere. How did we find them? How did they find us?" Then it goes on to tell of Vetiver's musical journey in finding these songs, and their band story in general. It concludes speaking graciously of the amazing time they had discovering these songs and making this album, and urges the listener to, "...please seek out the albums these songs came from and share them, and everything you dig, with the people around you." Yeah, I dig, and I will. After all, sharing is caring. And care is love? Yes, it is.

All the songs are just so good!

Suds & Bubs

Since the apartment I now live in charges $2 to wash AND $2 to dry, I've decided to move on to a laundromat down the block. It's convenient-ish, I guess, and a lot cheaper. A LOT! At first I was doing the whole lazy laundry in my house thing, but after two weeks spending $12, and then the third week spent $14 because of a wonky washing machine that didn't spin out the water, I threw up my hands and exclaimed, ENOUGH! I'm saving loads of dollars now (no pun intended, BAH! so when you say that, it's like, "Hey I didn't start this as intentional humor, but it ended up that way, just see how clever I am naturally!" right? That's kind of silly), and it's kind of fun going to the laundromat. I don't stay there the whole time, just drop off my load(s), come back, switch it/'em, do something else for thirty minutes, collect my things, and that's that.There's a thing about this insanely affordable laundromat though. Before I even stepped foot in the establishment, my roommate warned me of a certain fecal smell in the back, by the quarter machine. He said the smell made him think that the toilet was broken, and the proprietor was perhaps pooping in a bucket, but it's cheap. So, warning: don't go farther back than you need to.

The first time I went to the laundromat, I had my quarters all ready to go, and I stayed up front as I was warned. This laundromat is run by a group of older Eastern Indian gentlemen, and they love to have loud easy jazz playing over the sound system while the news on the TV in the back is blasted at full volume. It's something else. I smile at them, they smile at me. I thank them for their machines, and bid them adieu.

The second time I went, I didn't come prepared with my quarters, but I was relieved to find out that the back did not smell like poop as it had when my roommate experienced laundry time there.

So far, so good... until I came back to get my stuff. I was in a rush, and I didn't feel like wasting all my quarters (well, money, really) on laundry, so I stuffed all my loads into two dryers. When I came to collect my things, I faced a little, angry Indian man who shook his finger in my face, scolding me that I shouldn't put that much stuff into one dryer, and going off on some tirade. Listen, mister, I said, I don't have time for this right now, I'm running late, and you can't tell me what to do - impressive, right? He continued shaking at me, telling me this was too much for one machine to dry. I needed more time or I needed to separate my clothes into more machines - latter preferred. Thanks for the advice, I grumbled, and left him in a huff. Ohhh, he put me in a bad mood, mostly because he was right, and also because my parents were coming in town and the clean sheets I wanted to change my bed with were still damp. So, I draped the damp bedding all over my apartment, in every room, and then I fixed the problem the next day, dropping off the damp laundry on the way to breakfast. Solved and solved.

Since then, I've made sure that I put everything in it's proper place, without overdoing the machines. An extra $.50 isn't going to break my bank, so I'll stay out of trouble and keep things easy. It was good. I started to gain the trust of the owners again; the smiling, the thanking, the dollar for quarter exchanging.

And then it happened. Yesterday was off to such a good start, I even shared in a little small talk with the old man - who donned his winter parka and one of these little hats with the ears, apparently it's cold in the shop - laughing about the bundling, worrying about the coming winter and all the snow. Then I came back to switch from washing to drying. As soon as we made eye contact I knew something was wrong. He made his way over to my washing machine, and spoke so fast and furiously I didn't know what was happening. You cannot do this. You cannot put this much in this machine! Cannot you see that it only takes 18 pounds!? Then he said something really fast and made me hold his cold hands, which were apparently stuck in the cold water of the machine, balancing out the load... and there was some water on the floor, too. I hit my head, and apologized profusely. I really was sorry. Sorry that I had made the old man so cold, sorry I had semi-broken his machine, and sorry that I slipped and fell back onto his bad side. For the rest of my time I moved cautiously around the laundromat and made small, sheepish smiles in his direction, only to be returned by a soulless scowl. I sighed and went about the rest of my day, thanking him again on my way out.

So, next time, I'm going to read all the signs, and bring in my own quarters if I remember when I'm at Dominick's (but those stupid bastards charge a quarter for a roll of quarters - does it really put 'em out that much to exchange money for money; especially at the money exchange counter? I don't understand!), because I have to get back in their good graces, for the sake of my socks.

Monday, November 3, 2008

He's a Motherfucking Headliner, Bitch. You don't even know it!

Yeah, that's right. Of Montreal, Kevin Barnes, live in concert. AHHHHH!mazing!!!

You can listen to the DC concert, courtesy of NPR, here. Pretty great, but hearing it in person - waaaaaaaaaay better. Can you even imagine!?

After this show I may have to make a vow never to attend an all ages show, ever again. Ever. Never ever. Oh, it was such a wonderful concert, but comprised of such a rowdy/obnoxious youth attendance up front, where all my friends and I wanted to do was dance. No, they wanted to mosh. But, I digress on that subject until later...

THE SHOW! The show! Magical, theatrical, sexual, unexplainable!! Where to begin!?! They played everything I wanted to hear. Every song had a choreographed routine of silliness that I enjoyed when I wasn't being hurled from one edge of the crowd to the other. From Gallery Piece to Plastis Wafers, Id Engager, Women's Study Victims... basically the entire new collection from Skeletal Lamping. And one thing I really liked, because Skeletal Lamping is one of those cohesive albums that flows fantastically from one song into the next, is when they stayed true to that - example Touched Something's Hollow to An Eluardian Instance. Oh, and my friends and I lamped. We lamp-lamp-lamped until we couldn't lamp anymore... because the show was over. In addition to all that, they re-vamped their old stuff, rocking out Oslo in the Summertime, She's a Rejector, and So Begins Our Alabee like nothing I've ever heard/seen before, extending riffs and awesomeness. They busted out Eros' Entropic Tundra for a mellower. Gronlandtic Edit was a part of their encore, and such a crowd pleaser, as was Disconnect the Dots. Then, they finale-finaled with Smells Like Teen Spirit, and oh-my-god. The moshing was totally okay then, I think they played it because they read the crowd as being so rowdy. I've seen them do a handful of Prince covers (and I wish I had examples but I didn't own Prince albums as a child - probably due to his sexuality and my mother attempting to prevent me from the sexual exposures of MTV, 90210, Melrose Place, and Dr. Quinn Medicine Woman - and stuck to the radio, though I do appreciate him as an artist, or a former artist, and I'd like to expand my musical collection to include him... friends, can you help?) before, and they were, Wow. When did Prince start appearing at other people's shows? That's how good it was. Of Montreal, they're perfectionists. Maybe it has something to do with Kevin Barnes creative mentality/process, and by maybe, I mean it definitely does. Wow! Writing about this makes me want to experience it again. So great, so GREAT!!! Of Montreal and Kevin Barnes can do no wrong in my eyes. He may be slightly - okay, all crazy, but he's a lyrical and musical genius, and I'm gonna say it - I love him, his work, him. Yeah. I LOVE Of Montreal!!!So, those punk moshy kids. Yeah, they were annoying, yeah they detracted from my enjoyment/experience in the concert because I was fighting to dance, but at the same time. They gave me a good story to tell. Granted, I took a lot of shit to be able to tell the story. I mean, these kids were rooooooooooowdy!! But it was so weird that when one kid lost their glasses, they stopped and helped, but when my friends and I (and other non-moshers around us) asked them to stop, they did not, and pushed instead. So, I took it, for a while, defending my space, trying to focus on the music, the man, the Legend, but then, I got a big ole shove that sent me flying and I lost it. I dove into the mosh and went crazy on kids, jumping on people, throwing elbows, feeling worked up and angry - it surprised me, then it became to much and I grappled to get out and to my friends who laughed at me and shook their heads. Then, I got pushed again, and my friend, Libby, got super serious and went in for some smack-down herself. This went on for the better latter part of the show, and by the end, when walking to the coat check line, we were all clutching our backs and walking on a slant, ooohing and aahhhhing, exclaiming that we aren't as young as we used to be all the while stretching.

**Note: I'm actually posting this 11/14/08, but the way blogspot saves drafts, it keeps the initial date, or at least the way my settings are. Annnnnnnnnnyway, last week I went to the Ghostland Observatory show (18+) with a couple friends and as we were ascending the stairs to the dance floor, I noticed one of the moshers from Of Montreal. Hey dreads! I shouted. He turned and looked at me, smiling, "Ha. Yeah?" No moshing tonight, alright!? Then he said some smart ass comment about how he and his friends always mosh at concerts and if I didn't like it then I shouldn't be that close to the stage, and then I said, Well, maybe you should go to concerts where it's appropriate to mosh, douche. I never claimed to be mature, PS.

Also, here's another OM lover's review of the show.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Piss & Vomit

Oh, what a morning! I woke up to some delicious Crosby, Stills and Nash, and thought, Yes! This is going to be a magical day! Then I decided to snooze another 20 minutes because it was way too cold to shower when I did last night, and I totally did not work up a sweat at the dance-lacking (yet super rad) Yeasayer show.

I shivered my way through the morning process. My roommate and I decided that we're not going to turn our heat on until 11/01. UGHHH! Saturday's so far away, although it is supposed to get warmer as the week progresses - YAY, HALLOWEEN!! Ew, boring how I resorted to weather topic.

I was running late, but it's okay because I'm usually - uh, sometimes, or rather, occasionally - early to work. When I got to the EL stop I had to superfast walk waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay down the platform to find a car that could accommodate me. Once inside I thought, Hmm. It smells peculiar in here, my nostrils are burning. Then I sighed at the CTA's cleanliness issues and tried to focus on my music and rest my eyes a little. The smell wasn't going away, but getting somewhat stronger. Impossible! It can't be true! I looked down to see that I was standing in a stream of some most likely dark golden (dehydrated) liquid that came from the direction of that little enclave-ish area in the back of the car. No, no, no. NO! I made sure my pant legs weren't dragging, held back my gag reflex and closed my eyes waiting for it all to end. Thankfully, it was the slowest train ride I ever experienced, and I had plenty of time to soak the urine into the soles of my shoes. I've never see Urinetown, but always wanted to.It was all I could do to keep from vomiting, and all I could imagine is what if I vomited on the person sitting next to me, then they to the person next to them, and them on the guy sitting in front, and so and so forth, until we were all vomiting on each other. It was a horribly disgusting image and I thought how uncomfortable and how smelly it would be to be in a crowded train car full of people covered in puke! You couldn't go to work, or to your interview, or shopping, or anything else you do downtown. But what an excuse!! Who could dispute that, "Uh, well, sorry bossman, I can't make it into work today, or I'll at least be late... y'see, this jackass threw up all over me on the train this morning." Also, no cab would take you home, and people would scowl at you and hold their noses on the train back west. Not a good situation to be put in. And one that could've been avoided had the assumed crackhead held their bladder until they got off at the Grand stop. Luckily my imagination was as far as I got with the scenario.

Once I got to my stop I climbed the stairs as fast as I could, only to feel that I was still surrounded by urine. At the top of the stairs I took a large breath of what I hoped would be fresh city air, but it was only the urine mixed with a strong scent of chocolate. The chocolate air is usually a delight, warming you heart and soul, but today, with the urine, I wanted to run, but there was no escaping.

It's finally gone now. So, I've either grown immune, or I wiped it all off on my walk to work. Hmm.

Lesson: Don't pee in confined spaces, MALES!!**

I also vomited at work,  I think due to the aforementioned toxic nasal inhalation that occurred over a long period of time. This is really just TMI now, but there's that for you. It happened; I trooped on. PS, sorry about the one above, I couldn't keep reviewing the google image selections!!

**I assume unless it was a woman - which I was going to say was ballsy, but then, y'know, like it's pretty disgusting no matter who did it.

And now, thinking back, everyone else was standing and sitting in it, too, and how could it be, so calm?

Friday, October 17, 2008

Lesson Learned: Just Keep Moving Forward

Oh, geez.

This past Sunday - which is actually now 3 Sundays ago - I competed in and completed the 2008 Chicago Marathon. Ooey, ooey!! Shoo doggie, it was HOT! HOT HOT HOT!!! And I did not like that very much.

The night before should've been taken as a warning of things to come. My parents were in town and they decided to save money on a hotel and stay with me, so I made them buy me things. Because I made them buy me things, I felt guilty making them sleep on the floor and opted to give them my bed. Nice kid, huh? I set-up a sweet little space in the living room, and everything was gravy the first night, but Saturday. Oh, Saturday. Saturday night my upstairs neighbors SUCKED! They are usually loud walkers, talkers, and have a great big fuckin' dog. Great just great, I thought as I heard them knocking to get in around 2:30a. The dude in 1F let them in and I listened angrily as they clomped up the stairs. Please, please, please just pass out. Oh! But they needed to let the dog out first as I deduced from the crashing and scrambling overhead. For some reason narration seemed necessary to the loud drunk girl as her dog dragged her down the stairs, she shouted, "She is kicking the shit out of me! She is kicking the shit out of me! Oh fuck! Calm down. You are kicking the shit out of me!" I wanted to kick the shit out of her. Then I passed back out and all was quiet.

The race. Wow. It was crowded. I met my friend to take a picture, and then proceeded to make my way up to my pacing group... it was harder to break through the crowd as I got closer to the starting line, and I ended up settling in with the 4:30 kids. Little did I know that was going to be closer to my finishing time than I preferred. It took about 20-25 minutes before we crossed the mat, a very surreal experience as I had never run with or in front of that many people before. 33,000 runners started (from the 45,000 registered) and 31,000 finished. They speculated there were 1.5 million in the crowd. WHOA! Talk about production.

What a course! The flatness was nice, but at the same time I really dig hills to give me a little powerboost and shake it up. Y'know? Yeah. But, I really enjoyed running through the neighborhoods - especially the shady ones. I have to say, Lakeview and Boystown were probably my favorites, due to the shade and the humor/eccentricity of the spectators. Also, Pilsen was unbelievably supportive with hoses/sponges/ice to keep runners cool. Everyone did a great job. The water stations were stocked, though the drinks were warmer towards the finish line - it makes sense, it was HOT! I had a great time dancing through the fire hydrants - that was probably my favorite part, though on the last one I definitely felt a blister on my right captain toe pop, and that was not very pleasant.

It was most definitely hard, but you don't expect marathons to be a walk in the park. Despite the heat, I felt great while I was running, and my MPH was increasing up until mile 16, when I noticed it took me significantly longer to run mile 15. I took off my pacing bib and set it down on the side of the road and pushed on. No aches and pains, just a slightly broken heart - I was really looking forward to breaking 4 hours. But, I told myself, you're not running this for yourself, you're running for a reason, and you raised $2,000 for a great cause and that's impressive, and you're out here and you're going to finish!! So I kept moving forward. There was a point around mile 19, I think, where a grateful spectator shouted out to a runner, "Hey Mike! I'm a survivor and I thank you from the bottom of my heart." That gave me chills, put tears in my eyes and a fire under my ass - I picked it up a bit. Then I saw a temperature screen that read 94 degrees, oh, you have GOT to be kidding me! It totally only got up to 85 that day, but still, don't remind me. I'm running, I know.

Blah, blah, blah. I'm happy I did it. Training has dropped off dramatically since then and I'm starting to feel sluggish and I really need to step it up. I got my Runner's World in the mail last week and it made me yearn to get back out on the road and slap my feet against the pavement. After work tonight I'm going to try for a 8-10 miler, we'll see what happens.

One thing I took away from this race was that when things get hard and you want to give up because you think it'd be so much easier, think about why you started in the first place, and how much better you'll feel when it's over, for having stuck with it through the finish, and giving it your all. That's why I run marathons, not only is it the race, but it's the training and preparation, running for something bigger than yourself; for a purpose, the fundraising, the excitement in the days ahead, the start line excitement, the runners, the spectators, the finish line, learning about yourself and your body, the meal after, the boring recovery where you have to sit on your hands so as not to unknowingly injure yourself, and then, getting back on the road and doing it all over again. I love to run.

Well, I wanna know!!

Why is it that the most brilliant ideas only come to me when there is no pen (and paper) handy?

Why did I believe for so long that I'd be a millionaire by age 25, and spent accordingly?

When did I stop wanting to go out and party every Wednesday - Tuesday?

Why do I feel like I'm 30 even though I'm only 23?

Why does my Mother still tell me, "Don't drink!" when I leave for the grocery store?

When did I lose sight of my dreams?

Why can't I have a no-strings-attached sugar daddy to take care of all my student loans?

Why won't awesome employers hire me just because I want them to feel my incredible capability through telepathy?

Why haven't I been "discovered" for my dance moves, blog posts/match.com profile, general awesomeness and outrageousness, yet?

When will I live in a fully-insulated mansion/apartment/home/shack?

Why hasn't anything my friends and I predicted in MASH come true?

When will I drive my Lamborghini hybrid - with my Great Dane, Darwin, sitting in the back - to pick up my Nobel Prize-winning neurosurgeon husband to drive off into the sunset for a weekend in Vermont?

When will I reach the moon so I can dance with the stars?

Why don't the upstairs neighbors realize/care that my roommate and I can hear them having sex when we bang on the walls and yell "NO"s in responses to their "YES"s at 3am on a Tuesday morning?

How many years will it take before I become an "overnight success"?

Why is it that Sean Penn had to go and steal my dream of turning "Into the Wild" into a movie, and why did he have to do such a great job of it?

When will my friend, Mike, and I shake hands with the executives at HBO for the three-season contract of our television show?

Why hasn't Oprah hired me yet?

Why am I not travelling by teleportation yet?

When will my telepathic abilities kick in?

When will Joshua Jackson's people serve a restraining order to my cubiclemate?

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Brown Lightning was RAPED!!

That's right. And it's all my fault.

For those of you who haven't been keeping up with my adventures, Brown Lightning is my bike, the love of my life. You can read all about her and my excitement in bringing her home from a previous post found here.

The heartbreak began this past Friday, October 3rd, when I decided that I would have a few more drinks than I needed, preventing me from hopping on my saddle and pedaling home. I left li'l Lightning locked up outside, overnight - my first and most fatal mistake. Saturday I went for a run to retrieve her, and I was dismayed to find that someone decided they needed her back tire more than I did. As I had no dollars or CTA card on me, and was 4 miles from home, I had no choice but to turn and leave her again, running home in a sea of anger with waves of sadness washing over me in thoughts that people could be so cruel.

Sunday came and went, and I didn't have my friend take me to Brownie because the bike shop was closed and I thought, what else could they take from her that they haven't already? How sorely shocked I would become come Tuesday - after the torrential downpour Monday prevented me from venturing into the monsoon - upon discovering that my super sweet seat was indeed removable. AHHHHH!

So, here I am Tuesday evening, wandering the streets with a raped and broken bicycle slung over my right shoulder, frown painted on my face. I can't take the bus to the bike shop because the driver informed me that only one of her bike locks work, so I sit in hopes that another will soon come my way. Unfortunately, the CTA is as unreliable as an alcoholic aunt who promised you she'd pick you up from the train station in the middle of nowhere on a cold, dark night, and while there were 3 buses in the other direction, I saw none coming my way in the distant horizon. Bummer. I called a cab, specifically requesting "one of those van cabs."

This is where the lecturing begins, in three parts. My cab pulls up. We fold the back seat over and twist and turn Brown Lightning so she fits without getting crumpled by the back hatch. My driver tells me I need to lock up my bike. Well, I did, sir. He then tells me I can't use none of them cheap locks as them cheap locks are easy to break through. I need an expensive one. I have an expensive lock, sir, but it didn't cover my back tire. Well, there's your problem right there. Yes, I know. And he proceeds to tell me about the bike thieves and how no good people aren't honest and they take anything that can help them advance in this world, even if it isn't theirs. Thanks. This is not what I want to hear right now, and I'm relieved as we pull up to the destination.

Second part lecturing: the cool bike man who set me up with Brown Lightning saw my sorrowful look and said, "Oh no! What happened?" and I said, "They took my back tire and my super sweet seat!" I explained the situation of the unattended overnight stay in Lincoln Park and he said that I can't leave my bike out overnight, anywhere, that the bike gangs rove the streets at night looking for whatever part they can take. Apparently this problem has only worsened with each penny addition to the gas price. He then apologized and said that I probably didn't want to be lectured at a time like this. He was right. Then he told me he could fix her within 30 minutes, but it was going to be $60! Bummer! I had some place to be, so I couldn't stay and told him I'd be back today. Then the proprietor of the shop came out and said that he was going to give me a strong cable when I came back so this wouldn't happen again. I thanked him and was ready to go on my way when the cool bike man told me he had two tickets to this show at a theater across the street and asked me if I wanted to go. My mind was elsewhere and so I said, "sure" not thinking that he was asking me if I wanted to go with him, but rather if I wanted the tickets. I'm still not sure what he meant by asking, and I really hope that it's the latter. I mean, he's a really nice guy, but he's in his late 40s, and errrr... yeah, no. So, that might place me in a really awkward situation tonight as I stumble and stammer my rejection.

Alright, part three. I leave the bike shop, walk towards the bus stop, am on the phone with my Mom, see the bus zoom by, tell my Mom bye, run to catch the bus. On the bus I recognize the driver as the same one who couldn't accommodate for me and Brown Lightning costing me a $10 cab fare. She asked me what happened and I told her the whole story. Again, she responded that I couldn't leave my bike out overnight, even if it was locked up. I explained that I had been drinking and didn't feel comfortable riding by bike at 4 in the morning. Then she said something I really liked and will take to heart from now one, Cowboys never leave their horses, they walk 'em home. Oooh, good one lady. I like that. So, from now on, when the whiskey has a hold of my head so much so that I can't ride home to bed, I'm walkin' that bitch back rather than leavin' her on the rack. Thanks, Ms. Bus Driver!! Lesson learned. Cost of lesson $70 (including cab fare). Shiiiiieet!

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Soy un Perdedor

This past Friday I saw Beck and MGMT at the Aragon Ballroom, and let me just say, "HOT DOG! What a show!" The last time I was at the Aragon (which is a beautiful, HUGE venue, by the way - some people complained about the acoustics, but I think the show sounded pretty great, granted I was under influences) was in 2004 to see Dashboard Confessional - yeah, thank goodness my musical tastes have since developed.
The ticket was expensive (almost $60, including stupid Ticketmaster's service fees) and thus I went in with high, high, high expectations for both acts. MGMT opened right on time at 7:30. It was an all ages show, and there were braces up front as far as the eye could see - very strange; I'd almost forgot young children existed. MGMT opened up to screams as soon as they started in on the bleeps and bloops of the keyboard on "Time to Pretend." I was up close, and it was crowded; I could hardly dance it was so shoulder to shoulder, but I shook it out and made it work. Someone had broccoli farts - bad. Also, there were two drunk Latinas behind me who insisted on nasally sing-shouting the words to all the songs, even when they didn't know the words. Just great. The boys sounded amazing, had awesome energy, seemed to really be enjoying themselves, and worked the stage/crowd - phenomenal. I really liked the dudes who played with 'em, too. The add-in guitarist wailed hardcore, and the drummer rocked his set - they both looked like Led Zeppelin roadies; I dug their sound and style.

Another funny thing about the crowd for MGMT were these two couples dancing together - totally on ecstasy - getting more excitable throughout the set. One of the dudes kept bumping into a Dad who was there with his daughter - most likely for protection - and after he did he would apologize, "Dude. I'm sorry." And he proceeded to pet the man's bald head in an apology attempt. Hilarious.

Man, I really wish I could've seen MGMT open for Of Montreal way back last November before they blew up... bummer, dude. The set they played was so short as Oracular Spectacular is only 10 songs and like 41 minutes long... oh yeah, and they played the album in order, which was a super bummer; I was really looking forward to hearing "Boogie Down" live, which is from their 2005 EP, Time to Pretend. During "Kids" Ben and Andrew got off their instruments and rallied around the stage... Andrew got all excited banging on the drums, and Ben danced around and drank some beer. Although they did play the entire album, they funked it up and added some jam sessions onto songs like "4th Dimensional Transition" - really talented, I can't wait until they're headliners and I get to see 'em as that. SOON! I hope!!

After they finished "Future Reflections" and left the stage I wailed, "NOOOOOOOO! Come back, play Boogie Down!" But they did not, and the roadies got to work switching up the sets for Mr. Beck & Friends. I wandered away from the crowd, "Excuse me, excuse me, excuse me, excuuuuuuse me," to the bar, "Ah one shot of whiskey, and a beer, please." Then I wrote a little, moseyed upstairs to the VIP section, "Who do you have to know to get in there?" The guy said, "You gotta be on the list." Well, you're no fun, mister. I went downstairs to the merch table and picked up a sweet shirt and poster - both MGMT. Wandered back upstairs, made some friends, and then the lights went down and Beck took the stage.
I was looking forward to Beck, but not nearly as much as I was for MGMT. Let me just say, WOW! He rocked, he rolled. He played every song you ever wanted to hear. From "Hell Yes" to "Loser" to "We Dance Alone" - it was incredible. And the crowd was so energetic and friendly. I stood next to a pirate for a while, and a guy who kept high fivin' me and yellin' "FUCK YEAH!" after every song - it was fun for the first five, then he started movin' in on me and I wasn't having any of that so I went for a double shot of whiskey, I didn't have any money for water and since it was bottled I asked the barkeep for free water, and he pointed to the Miller tab and said "You mean this?" Oh, yeah, sure. And he poured me half a cup - saaaaweeet!!!!

My besties didn't buy their tickets in time before the show sold out so I flew solo, and it was great. I loved wandering around to different areas without having to worry about what a friend wanted to do. Everyone Beck played with was super talented, too. During "Hell Yes" they all got off their instruments, gathered at the front of the stage by the microphones, headphones on, tape recorders in hand - and fuckin' tore it up, electric style. It was amazing. I appreciate Beck so much more than I ever did before, even if he is a Scientologist, which super sucks, but religions aside, he's a talented artist and I look forward to seeing him in concert again. (I dig this album mix)

The show was over by 10:30 and I was able to go out and rage it with my ladies for a friend's birthday. It was a great night and a great start to an amazing weekend!! On Saturday I went to see EOTO with 9 friends, and it was incredible!! Read what my friend Ashley had to say about that.